it's end of september 2009... masuk next month, dah setahun since i quit my job... at first, it was really hard (still hard at times) coz i lost my self empowerment.. i lost the power to decide on things as i have to depend on my husband... which is something that i never do before, sebab i've always been a very independent person... it started waaaayyy back in STF... STF is far from home, so i cannot afford to have my parents to drop by just any time... nak balik S.alam pun naik tren.... angkut la beg besar gabak sorang2... i remember the bags were bigger than me at that time! hoho..
n it continued through my Uni days... i had that PTPTipu to support my studies... actually, i'm quite grateful for the PTPTipu... tapi bile tang bayar, pengsan! i hope i would get a job really really soon.... as i need to get all of my debts out of my life, once and for all! encik PTPTipu, sila bersabar yeee.....
during ACCA plak, i had MARA loan... the best part is, it's convertible provided i finish ACCA in 3 years' time.... alamak, cita2 tak kesampaian la pulak! but yes, i finally managed to finish my ACCA after a total of 7 years, which in the meantime i managed to work for almost 4 years and get married! hmmmm..... lagi satu plus point, it is interest-free! tak mcm PTPTipu tu, ada 1% service fee.... yg di"charge" every month... hampes!
bile dah keje, of course lagi la merdeka! i finally managed to fully take care of myself... so, when i have been so independent almost all of my adult life, when i quit my job, memang nahas la! it was not easy... it was not easy to ask at first.... and then it was not easy to hear the word "NO" every time i ask for something.... i do understand the reasons given but when NO explanation was given, i became angry...
this cannot last for long... for a marriage to work, one of the essence is, women, please get your own self empowerment... do not let your life lye on the mercy of another person.... be it your own husband! mcm orang tua2 kata, rambut sama hitam, hati lain2! maybe the only thing in common that we have is the love for each other... but the way we see life, is totally different story!
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sara, i know how you feel..think not many people know that i was jobless as well (i think close to a year)after i foolishly quit my previous job. that one year, memang tensionla sebab i was very restricted esp. financial wise. Apapun terjadi, rezeki you akan tiba. I got mine in a way, out of the blue..tak apply tiba tiba orang called for interview. So girl, be strong, there will be light!
ReplyDeletethanks, yana! really hope the light comes soon! hehe
ReplyDeletebeb, i found u! i like tajuk, rambut sama hitam, hati lain2.
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