emosi tak stabil... that's what happen when i live too long apart from my husband... yes, memang geli... but, only married people know how i feel... isu kali ini, as usual... babies laa.. aduii... bile la sara naquia nak get over this topic?? i seriously don't know... its just when i see more n more friends uploading their baby photos n stuff... makes me feel more sad for me.... of course, i feel happy for them... but seems like nobody feels sad for me... i know my husband is, but he's a man... it's against his biological rules to show emotions of any kind... knowing me, a super expressive person, being married to an extreme opposite who doesn't display any feelings makes me feel alone... alone alone...dah la duduk jauh... waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
whenever i talk to people around me, semua kata take it slow, rileks, bla bla bla... but i'm just tired of being sympathised... entah, maybe i want someone to cry for me plak ke??? dem, emo emo emo!!!! benci perasaan ini... this makes me feel handicapped... i keep on asking, what's wrong with me and stuff like dat.... but searching for an answer is a very very scary place to go... i surf the net almost every day now to look for an answer, but in the end, the best solution is to "check with your doctor or gynea"
itu belum campur mulut laser beracun masyarakat setempat yg bertanya mcm polis pencen... OMG.. another baby question, i'll end up in Harian Metro front page that says, "GILE MEROYAN" and the news read: seorang wanita dikatakan naik berang apabila ada orang bertanyakan soalan, "bila nak dapat baby" kepadanya... dia dikatakan bertindak gila dengan menampar lalu meng"abugit" orang itu hingga cedera parah....
conclusion: emo tak abis2... bila nak abis?? tatau... kenapa emo?? jangan tanya pls!
-sara yg emo-
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miss sara.. i know i shd feel bad reading ur blog..tapi tak tau macam manela.. bila baca part ur abugit tu terus dah hilang rasa kesian.. tetiba i gelak besar sorang2 kat rumah yang berdinding nipis ni.(mesti orang sebelah ingat i ni dah weng..hehe)..whatever it is, i can only say..I KNOW HOW U FEEL..nanti kita abugit orang sama2 nak? pastu become famous amos in thestar la,hmetro kurang sikit readership dia :)
ReplyDeletei think u need to have some activities to get your mind off it. thinking about it won't give u babies, but having something to do while u keep trying can make it feel like a breeze when u even tually get it. do something fun. ;)
ReplyDeletesara dear.. my sis was barren for 8 years.. she's a teacher, lives in fishermen village and u know la how mulut they all ni.. some relatives even cucuk2 hb dia suh kawen len... and the rest of the siblings plak asek banak banak banak... her life was so hectic, tuition, koko, mark spm papers... a few teachers keep pushing voluntary jobs to her dgn alasan "dia xde anak"... she tried everyting... ada je org ckp boleh peknen, she tried.. finally, both went for treatment with Dr. Hamid Arshad...
ReplyDeletealhamdulillah, after few treatments, buat laser mende tah to clear the "path of the tunnel", she conceived... after 8 years.. her remark was.. "I'm glad she came now when I've settled down and not so busy anymore. The timing is PERFECT."
have faith dear, that Allah will give u when the time is right.. anak tu hak mutlakNya, mintalah dariNya... in the meantime, just keep yourself busy and your mind of the topic.. the more stressfull u are, the harder your body to accept..
Hai sara. Annur here. Adik aku dulu kawin setahun lebey, la ni 2 bulan lepas aku konpem pregnant br dia pregnant. Adik aku kawin dulu dr aku. So sket2 aku paham apa ko rasa sbb adik aku dulu hari2 mengeluh n citer kat aku. IUI and ntah apa2 treatment segala dia dah buat. N last2, bila dia dpt merelaxkan diri dia n mengurangkan tekanan pd diri sendiri, plus dia sempat pakai premium beautiful 2 minggu rasanya, dia berjaya pregnant. Bukan nak promote hapa pun sbb aku bukan distributor menda tuh. Just nak share pengalaman antara org terhampir dlm idop aku. So, all i can say is gluck.
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